The Journey

I was given the best opprotunity to partake in. I was given a free admission ticket to the Natural Living Expo, in which there were over 130 vendors of the Metaphysical variety. There was the option to do 56 different workshops, and one truly caught my attention. Shamanism. Specifically that not only would there be an introduction to it, but they were going to help guide us into a Shamanic Journey.

I am aware that Journey’s (not Vision Quests), are extremely personal to everyone, especially the conversations, but I tend to be more open about things except those of a sexual nature. I will be posting my experience, including the question, answer, and anything else that occured. There is much symbolism within it, and examining it later would and will be beneficial. Plus, I know that there are some it could benefit too, to see another’s Journey.

We learned that this particular brand of Shamanism originated from a tribe within the Andes Mountains, within the Amazon. We started out with a ‘lecture’ about what Shamanism is, but before he spoke, we conducted a Opening Ritual, where we invoked those of the directions, the earth, and the sun. He spoke about what Shamanism is, how it is today, and things about it. I wrote down all that I heard, plus recorded it.

When it was time to partake in the Journey, he was quite thoroguh with giving us not only directions on how to, but where, and what to say or do. The lights were dimmed and we settled into our spaces. The drums began and I closed my eyes, reveling in their beat. Three different sounds, so beautiful together.

I stood before a cave, one that was dark to me, but I called upon my Guide. I don’t interact with him often, but I knew that he was the one that needed to be with me on this. He is a winged dire wolf, near and dear to my heart. I felt the twin were pups (though grown to be no longer pups) join me. The drums were strong and steadfast and almsot made it difficult to Journey. I walked with them into the cave and it was dark, but not so much that I couldn’t see. I stepped with determination. It was awhile walking through the cave when I began to run, knowing that I did not have much time as it was to actually wander like I do when I Travel.

The were pups faded away the closer I got to the end of it. I surmise that they were not meant to come with me on this part of the Journey.

The darkness faded away to this bright forested area, where I could see over top and the distant mountain ahead. I was not sure how long it would take me to get there, so we set a fast pace through this forest. It was quiet for awhile, until we came across this 5 foot large green snake that had black stripes on the back. Later research is showing that it’s a green tree python that has black spots/stripes. I may draw a picture later on.

This python stopped and when we stopped, it slowly slid toward me and climbed up my left leg. It was not awkward to walk, but the snake perched itself around the entirety of my left leg. We continued to walk without a word, until  large golden and grey feather floated down in front of me. I caught it in midair and then stuck it into my hair. We continued.

When we drew closer to the edge of the foest and base of the mountains, my Guide spoke.
“We are here.”

I walked forward and I remembered that the man who was teaching the Shamanism spoke that we will meet them in three different ways, 1) Sight [Clairvoyance], 2) Sound [Clairaudience], 3) Sensing [Clairsentience]. Thankfully, with my work in both spirit work and Astral Travel, I was able to achieve all three. The Teacher was different, the shape never stayed the same, but the base form was humanistic, though there were aspects of feline to them. I did not wish to be rude and look at them extremely carefully.

“Teacher, I have been sent here as part of a Journey, so that I my experience it and to learn an answer to a question that I have. But I first want to return this to you.”

I gave the teacher the green snake, and then waited for them to respond.

“I thank you for returning him to me. What brings you?”

“I come with a question, Teacher. May I ask you?”

“Ask and I shall answer.”

“I know that I have a soulmate with a physical body and I know who he is. I know that we are supposed to meet. My question is this, are we supposed to meet in this lifetime, if so, then when and how soon? I cannot live much longer without being with him.”

The Teacher was silent for awhile, staring at me and assessing. The energy was really strong and very pointed on examining me.

“Instinct. Trust your instinct. Work hard on Believing. He said he would find you, he will o so. Trust and meet him halfway.”

Extra that I picked up from the conversation, was that the Teacher meant that meeting halfway meant that I was to believe in him.

“May I ask one more?”

The Teacher nodded and I asked, “May I have a gift?”

The Teacher smiled and then reached out, allowing for me to lean down near them. They placed the snake on my left arm which wrapped around and the head rested over my shoulder and on the right shoulder.

“I give you the snake and I also give you the feather.”

I could hear the beat of the drum change, letting us know that we need to come back. The Teacher looked to me and smiled.

“You must return.”

“Thank you.”

A brief nod, “Trust. Go.”

They shoved me and I came back and very jarred from the abruptness of being forced to leave. The person lecturing us walked around once everyone was back t make sure that they were actually there and they were grounded. When doing so, he asked about the gifts. People were talking about all these gifts: Clam with a Pearl, a Pendant, A Feather, Clairvoyance and Clairaudience, Piercing the Veil, to name a few. This was when he smiled and said that everyone recieved these gifts, as we all traveled together for this. It was quite fascinating and amazing.

I must go back and speak with the snake to see reason for his appearance, as well as what he has to say or why he was gifted. So many questions. When I came out of it, I could literally feel the wieght of the snke resting in the same place as when I was in the Lower World. I could feel the sentience and the spirit that was there, even the feather within my hair.

Forward to later on, I am walking around the expo and keep getting drawn back to this huge and lovely oval Labradorite. I have not worked with this stone much if at all before. So I walked to the lady and ask her the importance metaphysically. She spoke of it being a way for people to access inter-dimensions, oher worlds, other beings. I decided to look it up on the web and see if I could know more. Low-and-behold, this stone is the stone of Shamans, of those who origianlly found it, the Inuit. I was shocked and amazed, it was a stone that I was looking for, yet never truly knew what it was for.

I purchased it, and it is a gorgeous piece that sits on my altar. I had carried it around for two days, but it had broken when it dropped to the ground. It broke clean, but still I felt devastated. There are plans, and it may come to pass, but I have yet to decide. It would fit perfectly as a ritual necklace.

When I returned home from the Expo, I was pleasantly surprised to find that my Archaeology of Ritual class had me reading about the Andean culture. Somehow, it is not a coincidence, though I dont know what it means.


Full Moons and Rituals

I had a hard time waking up this morning, being around 10:30am, but was so tired that I fell asleep again. So I returned to the Pool Room and sat down in my spot of the Pool. I put my feet in and picked at the grass. The situation with the deity and all of the contracts and whatnot had me exhausted and troubled.

“You shouldn’t be here, you know. You should be resting,” Umo told me as he sat down. Xel joined him, placing his head to my left side. I asked where Ari and Aly were, my baby hydra and ice/water dragon, because they were always hanging out around Xel. Immediately, they jumped into the Pool and swam over. Ari was proud because she gained another head, making to 3. Aly was just excited about swimming around in the water and getting attention.

Umo told me that I need to rest from everything, I spoke about needing to find a Cockatrice for Cy (my best friend). They said that they would go and search for me, “needing a new adventure”.

I was shocked but told them I wanted to be the one to do it. They were adamant and took the orb of energy that I had from Cy (obviously it was ambient energy from messages and was to be a surprise that I was looking).  They moved away with the crystal, Xel making his way to Hometree. Umo stayed long enough to tell Aly and Ari to find Sen and then ‘grounded’ me. So until tonight, when the ritual was to occur, I am grounded.

Starting At The Boardwalk

I have been getting into the habit of going to the Astral as I fall asleep. Why, I am not so sure. I do know that it has been making it much more prominent that I travel in my sleep. It has been a bit disturbing or unsettling this past night. I just know that what I was reading right before sleeping played a big part. Whether it was traveling in dreamscape or other, that’s still a mystery.

But I made it a note to really start working on my astral travel itself. I wanted to start exploring more. Corv pulled me back and away from this underwater place, and we ended up on the Boardwalk. I got frustrated when he said that I worked with so many spirits that I need not to search for more. Which is true, but I do love to explore and learn so much from things. I wanted more to explore and swim, to get a bit away. I responded that I did just want to go to a new place. All I got in response was a roll of the eyes and “You are like a bear to honey, to not meet an new culture is almost impossible. Somehow you always end up working contract with them.”

“Well then, if I am to stay here, then you better be walking with me.”

I feel asleep close after that.

Utopia Venture

Alright, so just a bit of background, I HAVE been doing astral travel for quite some time, the thing was that I was not aware that it was truly astral traveling and not meditation imagery. That being said, it’s pretty clear now that I am more understanding of the term traveling, meaning not and out of body experience, or OOBE. Also, I know that some are familiar with different planes and realms, etc. Usually, each spirit race dwells on their own plane or realm. Elves, in this case had a very bad incident in their home realm and moved to one that the spirits that Jess and I work with created/found in order to be safe. They have since had an entire city built for them.

So I end up on the outside barrier of this plane, mainly because I havent truly been taken there the first time yet. I’ve seen most through other’s eyes. So when I first get there, I have to go through a ward to test who I am. On the other side, I am taken to the middle of our little town. I see our house/mansionthing in the distance. I am approached by a female elf who bows her head and refers to me as “Lady __” (I’m refraining from using my astral name on this blog). She asks me to follow her to the elven city, they are in need of a Healer. (Most in the spirit world know me as a Healer, especially with energy).. So as I follow her, she hops onto a horse nearby and then My baby boy (not so little anymore), or the storm beast that I raised, is standing there for me to climb on his back. I pretty much scream and hug the life out of him and yeah. I love my baby to death, I will refer to him a Naj on here.

So I hop onto his back, or more like he hikes me up onto his back. We are getting ready to take off when I can feel my body start to lag a bit, and I doze off into sleep, but still aware. I jerk myself out of it when the elven female (whom I’ve learned now is Jai) makes a snarky comment about me daydreaming. A new male presence makes themselves known, though Naj bit my leg to help jerk me out of it (which I felt physically). He responded that I am always a daydreamer. He was pretty tall and he had on those black combat boots with cargo like pants, but they were jeans. He had no shirt, and his trench coat looked odd, but cool. (think typical anime but mixed with the old style of the petticoat for war uniforms. His features flicker back and forth, I can’t get a good sense of features. Jai reprimands him that he is confusing me and he flickers for a moment before his image settles. He has this black windswept short/long hair and angular features.. the one thing I remember the most.. was that he had these ice blue eyes. It was Umo my Legion mate.

When he got up behind me on Naj, though the storm beast was growling at him.. Umo bopped him on the nose and said “don’t growl at your father.”

I was jerked out of it by that point, but going back in later on was more difficult. I was half lucid in both the astral and in the physical. I think because I was jerked out of it so many times, I don’t really remember anything other than what I experienced in the astral and what caused me to jerk out of it.

So back in, I take the time to get to the Elven city, where I am guided to a Healing ward, where this Elf has been poisoned extremely bad. It’s a death sentence, but they know that I can at least attempt to help. Thankfully, it was an easier procedure to remove it, though it was not pretty to do so.

I have to say, that I have seen three different outfits that I wear when I am doing certain things… and they are just badass. Enough that I want to design and show them to all of you, including what I see spirits wear. But, back to the story.

Jai guides me to where I know my other mate is, Lor. He’s the High Commander Elf that refuses to tell me how exactly he is related to the royal bloodline, but idc at the moment because he is more proud of his hard work getting his title. Anyway, so we get to the training grounds, where my outfit changes once more, very flowy in certain places, but much more streamlined for fighting. And we approach him and a group. The group stops and stare as I approach and I refer to my mate as my husband, which I could tell that I was speaking Elvish, but I heard it in English. because I would try to say mate, but their closest version of that is husband/wife.

So when he turns around to see me, I disappear just as he catches a glimpse of me. I got jerked awake because of something and I never was able to get back into the astral for the night. BUT I could hear him cussing up a storm and Umo teasing him that he got to see me first when I was conscious about traveling.